I've been writing poems for about 37 years now. I started when I was in grad school working on my Ph.D. It was a hot, humid August afternoon, and I was sitting at a desk thinking about Faulkner, trying to make sense of a line of imagery that seemed to thread through all of his novels.
I wasn't having any luck.
Out of nowhere, I had this sense of my parents and where they were and what they were doing. It came as a shock this sense. I hadn't lived at home in almost a decade, seldom saw my parents, tried in fact not to think about them and their lives. I didn't want to know about their worries, their memories of WWII and the mess those memories were making of their lives. But suddenly there they were in my head, and for some reason I started writing about them.
I hadn't written a poem in at least a decade either, but there suddenly I was writing a poem. And it wasn't the last. This poem about my parents started me writing poems again, and I've never stopped.
Here's the poem:
Dreams of Poland, September l939
Too
many fears
for a
summer day
I
regulate my thoughts
and my
breathing
regard
the humidity
and
dream
Somewhere
my parents
are
still survivors
living
unhurried lives
of
unhurried memories:
the
unclean sweep of a bayonet
through
a young girl's breast,
a body drooping
over a rail fence,
the
charred lips of the captain of lancers
whispering
and steaming
"Where
are the horses
where
are the horses?"
Death
in Poland
like
death nowhere else‑‑
cool,
gray, breathless
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The poem appeared in Lightning and Ashes.
It's strange to see why we become poets. I lost my mind. Poetry was the thin thread that helped me find my way back
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